Twist and shout!

I am amazed by life and how it turns on you in a second. For good or for bad, it does not matter, life will surprise you. Last week I was down in the dumps, feeling so alone and so sad, as if I was never going to get out of this funk and this routine that I let myself fall into. And now, just a few days later, I am so happy that I do not care anymore about things that brought me so terribly down. Maybe it has a lot to do with the fact that I decided to take charge of my life and took an active decision to put myself out there and meet new people. Maybe it has something to do with this great weekend that caught me totally by surprise. It was weird, because I used to see this guy almost every day, and I never knew what he thought about me, or how he felt about me. And I like it. And I am happy. Of course there are things that are still to be resolved, but the fact that there is something good going on for me gives me just that little push that I needed.

And also, meeting B put a lot of things in perspective. How can I be depressed about something that I know is not definitive, when there are such definitive things that could make you feel as if you were living in a nightmare, and yet you decide you want to live and make the most of it? This is a guy that, at 19, was roughhousing with some friend and the guy broke his neck. Now he is in a wheelchair, but when you are talking with him you forget the stupid chair because the guy is one of the most fun, positive people I have ever met. He is so funny and so nice. These are the times when I know that every person I meet has a message to give me. And I got the message indeed. And I am thankful for that and for all the messages I have gotten so far. As to the messengers, there are some that I never want to see again, but I learned the lessons. And that is all that matters.