Okay. I must admit, I think I am really upset. I am not happy with the current state of affairs, and I am not talking about world politics. I am talking about my life. I do not have my dream job, but I do have a means to survive and indulge in shopaholism quite often. I do not have a relationship with a man that I am proud of. I have a very small (but very cute) apartment, and sometimes I long for something that is, if not bigger, at least mine (meaning, instead of paying rent to a landlord, paying a very hefty mortgage to a bank). And, like my ex would say, I am not getting any younger.
What to do? I guess I must re-examine the current state of affairs, and of course myself, as if all these issues were an itsy-bitsy bug under a microscope and prod here and rearrange there; do some pruning and some fertilizing.
Or make a list. Let’s see…
About work, I have the following options:
1. Stay where I am until the temporary job ends, which might be somewhere along the end of this year, and look for something else in the meantime. Maybe even take a long trip when I'm done, which I am in serious need of.
2. Apply for a lesser position in the same department that I’m in, with a significantly lesser pay but which will allow me to get the experience I need with very minimal risk of fucking up, or
3. Apply for a position in a different department, which would entail not being “counsel” anymore (switching careers... that might be interesting). And I might not get that position either. Meaning a higher risk of a very deep depression due to higher exposure and humiliation. Thank goodness I have a very healthy ego…
So, one must think swiftly and thoroughly.
About men, I have absolutely no options. They all suck, which means I have absolutely no thinking to do on this matter.
If only world politics were as easy to figure out…!
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