I got this idea from a friend from work. I have neither read nor written in a blog before, and at first it sounded like a great thing to do... but then I got scared about writing stuff that other people would be able to read . I have kept journals pretty much my whole life, but nobody reads them (or at least, not to my knowledge). Obviously, I got over my fear and here I am.
First, you must know that I am indeed an alien, just not in the "X files" kind of way. I am originaly from Mexico and live in NY now. I have been here for a while (5 years) and I like it. I arrived here after I got married to a Jersey boy I met while I was on vacation in NY. When we met I did not think for a second that we would end up married, but we did. This actually changed completely the plans that I had made for my life: I was going to go study a masters degree in England, work abroad for a couple of years and then return to Mexico and make partner at the law firm I was working at. Marriage was not exactly what I had in mind, but I fell in love with him in such a definitive, crazy, once-in-a-lifetime kind of way, that I did not care about anything. Funny how things change so much. Funny how one makes plans to un-make them later. Funny.
I did study a masters degree, only I did it in NY (which actually was not bad at all). I do work in NY (which could be considered as "working abroad"), but I don't know what I am going to do next. I am at a point in my life when I must decide what to do with it. It is time to make new plans.
My grandmother died very recently. My marriage is a wreck. A guy that has meant a lot to me in many different ways is getting married tomorrow. I have been paying rent for an appartment that I was going to move into for three months now, only the appartment is still empty because I have not had the guts to move out. I feel like I have no energy to do anything about all this. But I must. Do. Something.
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